[Midnight Rambling] Maybe Someday

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Maybe someday
I would not run anymore
I would no longer avoid you for those made-out, silly reasons

Maybe someday
I would be as brave as Allie Hamilton
Who doesn't give a damn to what other people think
Or to what norms say she's supposed to be

Maybe someday
I would be able to express this affection
Freely, wildly, fearlessly
And I don't have to feel guilty with this feeling
That makes me feel so alive

Maybe someday
I would be someone you deserve
I would bravely stand in front of you
Doubtlessly say yes to your every question

Maybe someday
Are two words that haunted me recently
I've been thinking too much of maybe someday these days
Wondering whether it can be real

It starts to confuse me
That how they have potential to start the growth
Of something out of my heart called hope

When I knew exactly
There will never be
A maybe someday for me

15th April 2018

Jane